15 January, 2009


Today I woke up... right in the middle of a dark tempest dawn. I wasn't scared... I love all those load, strange noises as the world was ending outside my door; and the feeling that, in that slice of time, I'm alone and the world is mine.
All I know is that I woke up smiling with a strong feeling of belonging and reasurance. The funny thing is that I don't know what I was dreaming about. That peace of mind got me thinking and comtemplating... with a good vibe, what hasn't happen in more than a month now.
Not that I had an epiphany or something. Unffortunally I haven't. But I got to see that meeting and talking to all of you yesterday helped. Some reminded me some good things about me, others reminded me things I love. Others shared feelings and moments in life. Others just cared.
Either way, I got to see that I'm lonely... but I'm not always alone. I have my little tiny oasis in the middle of the desert.
So today... I'm (kinda of) happy - it's raining cats and dogs out there, it's freezing... but I'm not so hopeless.
Maybe this will only last for now, for today... but at least it will be a nice post to put out there for once =)

15 thoughts unleashed:

Vitor said...

Até que enfim uma palavra optimista, de bem com a vida... Isto é tudo uma passagem, temos de tentar tirar o melhor partido dela e não se questionar ou duvidar cada dia. Vive e sê feliz, porque tudo vale a pena, são as minhas recomendações. Beijoca grande.

Otário said...

hum... agora anda tudo a mudar o ambiente... eu só por ser do contra não mudo! pimbas!

mas tá giro tá...

Hélio said...

'Now I've been happy lately,
Thinkin' about the good things to come
And I believe it could be,
Something good's 'gonna' come..."

Cat Stevens

... surely it will...

;)

izzie said...

Oh gosh...
You'll spoil me... rotten =D
Easily... you're catching all my soft spots...lol

Deeply moved, deeply thankful... ;)***

Hélio said...

You're welcome! :) I just like to make people smile, make people dream and be happy... :D

izzie said...

Then... and without wanting to quote the hit song... if you read the profile... you now know that I'm yours.
=D

Hélio said...

I've seen it! But please, keep a little bit to yourself :) You'll get lost without it ;)

izzie said...

LOL
don't you worry about that... remember... 'm the girl who shows, without showing.
I'm incripted... noone will ever get to see the "big picture"... not even me ;)
***

Hélio said...

Some people get DEcrypted real fast... can't imagine how fast they can get...

izzie said...

ooh... don't worry about that... the layers of code are too complicated... it won't happen that fast...
And if it starts happening... it will be done in a "two way street" kind of way... and based on my cornerstone: Trust...
Showing, without showing I say... mark my words...

Hélio said...

Now you're on my turf: reading between the lines! :) PhD on that! Don't worry, your trust is properly based. I may have disappointed some people in the past but NEVER betrayed their Trust, EVER!
And yes, it's always in "quid pro quo" basis... ;)

izzie said...

No!... I'll rephrase that if you let me. Boy, you have met your match!
Or haven't you noticed that 90% of what I write is done with some kind of second meaning?... something you will only find if you read between the lines?
And... we're not perfect, we're only human... so dissapointment is easily grown... but betraying trust?... just isn't in my DNA... ;)

(Agora o Latim... e isto vindo de uma rapariga que tirou Letras... shoo me shoot me now... lol)

Hélio said...

I noticed it... and it's meaning is so perfectly clear to me... so clear... You don't encrypt your messages that well :)

(nao sabes o q quer dizer, "quid pro quo"? sabes...)

izzie said...

As long as you're the one seeing it claerly and not others... it's fine by me.
I encript myself but only till a certain point as otherwelse this wouldn't be public...
And I don't do it better orelse I wouldn't have find you...
(Ouço isso quase todos os dias... mas posso assumir... que fico sempre confusa?)

Hélio said...

:) It is a really nice bait, actually... LOOOOL I'm glad I bit it!

(Quid pro quo - Isto por aquilo. Na base da troca por troca... podes assumir - vergonha nao é nao saber, é fingir que se sabe...)

 
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